| I'm sorry...I know my behavior is inexcusable...=( |
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| Beyonce's If I Were A Boy song really made think about what if I were a girl...
So Here's a list of...If I Were a girl:
I'd know what I'd say, without thinking over too much about it
I'd try to look my best, thinking I'll somehow impress
I'd feel the joy of having a guy give me security
I'd experience the miracle of life, no matter how painful it is
I'd be told all kinds of oppressive stuff, and have the will to fight back
If I'd were a girl, I would be pro-life
I'd make my mom happy, and yell back at my dad if he did something wrong
I wouldn't every feel cheesy, I'd embrace every single emotion, and live it as simple as I can
But sadly enough, I am not a girl
I hold back my tongue, and think about it over again
I just take a shower and walk out, but always worrying I'll be judged
i don't have the confidence to ask a girl out
I just wait by the side, and feel sorry for their agonizing pain
I just get annoyed, by the stupid feminists, who persistently tries to get a voice out
Cause I am a boy, the girls have the say
Because it's their own body, and they'd have to go through 9 months of pain
I'm not good to my mom, I let my dad have his way, and he does whatever he wants with the family
I always feel awkward, when I express myself completely. They say I'm too gay, or being way too happy...
But I'm just a boy
what can i do.
I just dream about the days, of how it would be easier...if i were a girl... |
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| so today...like from 12- 3:45am....i've been doing the most blasphemous thinking I've done in my entire life. I've never been so doubtful, yet so strong about my faith ever...Yet, I kept going back and forth with what God made us to be, and what we want to be. Katy Perry has been on my thought for a long time. If I was to be like her, and to 'enjoy life' for a little bit, I think my cup of tea would be to sleep around with guys and drop out of school. It made me very frustrated that I thought of such hypocritical things...How do I refrain from such thinking? At the moment I think of Katy Perry of being such a douche-bag, hypocrite...I'm the same...It's a never ending cycle...Things like these get me depressed. I just can't wait for my winter break.
P.S.- I think asian guys are really hot right now. Don't know why. |
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| Did God intend for me to have a partner? |
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| I'm drifting away....don't know what to do....=/ actually i do...
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